Thoughts on the Future

Well to start with it's been a while since I've gotten any real writing done. I've jotted down a few rhymes but haven't found anything worth continuing. Only two poems worth posting on facebook.

I feel pretty separated from a lot of my old readers and friends after leaving Quizilla. I got a good start on storywrite.com, but after getting knocked off my feet by a cold that hit me twice while taking care of my fiance, I haven't stepped back in.

Not sure what I'm looking for as far as inspiration. I still get lots of ideas, but I think the fact I haven't finished any of the stories I've been working on, burring myself instead under the technical aspects of writing, is discouraging me. Also storywrite, while having honest reviewers... I don't feel the push to keep writing that I got from others who simply enjoyed reading my stories without pointing out flaws. I both want to improve, and want to know my stories still pull attention. If that makes any sense. Don't want to give up on my writing, but not sure how long this break will last.

The clock is starting to count down on my "down time" as far as unemployment. I hope after my fiance and I move back to FL in 6 months to be working again and into a more active life style. While wanting to start a "real life" with the marriage and everything, I don't want to let go of writing. But I'm rather afraid it will be buried under new pressures and responsibility.

I hope that when my fiance is done with his college and working to go back to college myself for creative writing. I don't want to give up on writing the way I gave up on my art. There are very few ways to show one's creativity. That part of me I don't want to lose.

List of my most recent poems

But deep inside your hiding rivers. Trying to keep your head above the waves. http://bit.ly/aJA2qk

Though different men of their making. Their different lives by death was taken. http://bit.ly/bz5cfv

Do you really even know what it is? You say your In Love so easy. http://bit.ly/b2pn8L

Don't tell me suicide is okay. To watch a friend throw their life away. http://bit.ly/byS2PX

You're just Normal like the rest, facing this test, just do your best...http://bit.ly/ahPVJw

From the grave their voices still call. Please show him kindness he was dead before us all. http://bit.ly/aQQ5vN

This standard was created to keep in line, millions looking for what they can't find. http://bit.ly/cqE96l

Sweet surprise, addictive bliss, all this lies beneath your kiss. http://bit.ly/bgNyus

I'm forgiving myself, and gaining some faith..All because of a Boy. http://bit.ly/aF55i6

Please don't sink to that level, another dance with the Devil. http://bit.ly/avzkPf

Here comes the choice of Truth or Consequence. http://bit.ly/9FNUKB

Now every day we listen and wait, two Princes of the Tower, trapped with our fate. http://bit.ly/ddMS8M


What you said about me I shall forget, your words hold no truth to be a threat. http://bit.ly/cviOXH

We will stay with you forever if you treat us the right way. http://bit.ly/bdD2HY

She can not hear you anymore, crumpled and lifeless on the floor. http://bit.ly/bSxnxA

Like a frightened bird I keep my distance well. http://bit.ly/d0JwPW

Caged away without complaint, pretty only on the outside. http://bit.ly/c2SxfL

Itchy skin. Taking off the costume I can only grin. Tossing your insults into the trash bin. http://bit.ly/afx5as

Moved In

Finally getting done unpacking the last of our stuff today. Setting up the Wide Screen and x box (again) in the living room now that its free. Plus the AC is just better out here. I cleaned off the lab top too, it's been needing it for months but the air spray and wipes were packed. Got a lot of stuff I want to do, just not the focus for them. But I've been doing pretty good with updates on Quizilla, despite the crap another writer is still posting. Ah well, I've put up my offer and I'm done dealing with her after this.

Dustin and I were looking up Army regulations again, for his 3 day pass. Wouldn't you know as usual they lied. Anywho hopefully he'll get some time off to come home and relax, I worry about him in this heat.

Listening to Chester See - God Damn Your Beautiful

Sleepy Energy

So not going to be able to sleep tonight. To much candy again, augh, but I love these orange slices!!! Saving the rest for the morning, I slept horribly last night cause it got so cold.. not looking forward to winter here. Hot as hell and probably equally as cold lol. Having lots of fun on Quizilla thanks to the challenges and one of my friends finally come back on *crosses fingers*

I'm trying to get as many new poems out as I can before I go through and pick the 60-70 for my next poem book. I want to have more fresh then new, though I'm sure I have that covered. I want this poem book to be more encouraging then that last, which was really just my emotions spilled out after everything that happened in 2008, break up, moving back home, being depressed, and of course getting over all that xD

Diary of Rachael Black

I await fall eagerly this year, Louisiana is frightfully hot. 110 to 150 degrees every day. I'm usually one to go out and walk three times a day, but this heat, and the rather unfriendly neighbors keep me inside. True this gives me more time to write, but I really miss the freedom [and privacy] of home.

My Angel gets out August of next year, he'll start his 'training' to become a civilian soon. I can't wait till he has normal hours, hopefully I'll be able to pick up a job then. We'll see.

I'm pretty pleased with my story, Diary of Rachael Black, though I wish I could draw from my imagination as well as I can draw what I see. I have yet to find a picture for the red eyed doll that seems to be the most terrifying part of the story so far. Detailed wise I've actually cut back a bit with this one, Since I write from one point of view only in this story, its fairly easy to do that. It's good practice for me since I've been told I put in a little to much description, though some people say they love my detailed writes. Meh, all and all its good practice and an enjoyable story.

I'm posting the link below for those of you who don't follow me on Quizilla or Booksie. I will eventually lock it as I hope to one day publish it, a more edited version. [keep getting an error this way, so if your looking for the link message me]

I'm still creating the characters, eventually, and probably soon, going into the tests Rachael must face. Hopefully with the same amount of fear and tension as when I dreamed this story. Nothing beats a good scary dream you actually remember vividly when you wake up.

Anywho just another update. Still waiting on moderators to deal with the matter of my “bully”. They seem offline and busy mostly, so I'm trying to be patient.

Things I’m working on.

Things I’m working on.

Well writing, writing, writing is up there. Honestly I think I’m working on to much at the moment. I’m writing four stories now?

When Death Smiles

Scarlett’s Garden

Witch Eye

Diary of Rachael Black

Along with the usual poems, and defending myself from the usual squabble on quizilla. [deep sigh] I can’t believe that four years ago I didn’t even have a myspace. Now I’ve moved onto facebook, twitter, and have to many other Internet accounts to keep up with. Not bad for a country girl. [wink]

I’m always looking for feedback on my stories so if any of you are interested in reading one let me know and I’ll pass along the links if I don’t post them here. Their spread out on my two Quizilla accounts atm, When Death Smiles is getting close to done.

I think as long as I have something to write, and at least on person to give me feed back I’ll be fine. I really do. [positive thinking]

Catching up

Omg it has been way to long since I update this page. I’m actually looking for a way to share as much about me as my writings so I guess I’ll give this a go [laughs] Some times you can have to many sites going on.

Ah, first off I see I mentioned I was publishing my first poem book, The Rambles of Shea Ryhai. That was published August 22, 2009 of last year. I’m actually just about to start compiling a manuscript for my second book, no title as yet, with a new publisher.

I will take this moment to advise any new writer from using publishamerica. Just because they say they can do it doesn’t mean they will, and there’s nothing like looking at the world’s worst book cover and being told they will change it....for 50$. Scam anyone? [Cough] Lesson learned moving on.

I’ll fill any interested readers in on the process of my new book [crosses fingers] here and my other main writing sites. Quizilla.com and Booksie.com. That should be enough for this post :) Will be back soon. ~SheaRyhai